The other day, someone commented that I somehow have more hours in my day for all the things I have going on. Don’t I wish. In reality, time is speeding past me and I can’t keep up. The only time it feels like things have slowed down is when I’m in bed, taking a “few” minutes to think & pray about this thing called life and next thing I know it’s 2am. Time is not on my side and its about to become a very long day. Thanks, insomnia. Can we break up now, please?
The rundown on what keeps me up these nights:
In a little over two weeks, my son will move to the other side of the country. With a girl. Who is just a friend. Who he’s never met. Time is not on my side. How do you make the most of seventeen days when you’ve had the last 19 years? What parental nuggets of truth do I need to send him off with? How do I encourage him to see the bigger picture of life and consequences? These are the questions that keep me up. But really, I know they don’t have answers. I’ve done what I can, as best and imperfectly as I can. He’s got a one way ticket. Which makes me want to go full mama bear mode like this:
I know, unless you’re living under a rock, we’ve all seen this video. I can watch it over and over and over because I get it. I feel her pain. And frustration. And LOVE. We’ve had more than one of those moments of me following him and giving him and earful over the years, but now that he’s an adult, he can do what he wants. Because you know, turning 19 makes you a total adult.
At least I haven’t lost my sense of humor in all this. 🙂
In a little over a month, I have a half marathon. I ran three miles today. Let’s not discuss how it went since it’s been about four months since I’ve done anything that resembled jogging, much less running. I saw this, but I’m pretty sure this is not the brightest attitude to approach the starting line. Time is definitely not on my side with training
or not at all for this.
In a little over two months, my daughter graduates high school, bringing us two months closer to her leaving for college. Let’s not discuss the hot mess coming. Instead, let’s eat through our emotions, shall we?
I kid, I kid. But time is seriously not on my side before I need to send mini-me off to college. We’ve got prom, graduation, family in town, family to visit, college to shop for, packing… oy….
So goes life. Time is not on my side and I need to at least pretend sleep is going to happen in the next four hours before the
madness morning begins.
But it’s all good. I know Who is on my side. And I can rest in that.
Until next time.